I'm going to the dock later to order some French fries.
Prologue
“ So, where are we going? “ Facing the Arctic Ocean with seagulls, I asked.
“ I’m going to the dock later to order some French fries. “ Seagull replied with a British accent.
“ No, you misunderstood… I mean, what is the ultimate goal of our life? “
“ What’s your opinion? “ Seagull asked.
“ I… I don’t think it’s going to the North Pole to see the aurora. “ I answered at a loss.
When I Was Young
“ It’s go to the North Pole to see the aurora!! “
I shouted, and the class burst into laughter.
“ Cheems, we are talking about the dream of life. “ The teacher said seriously, “ Obviously, going to the North Pole is not a dream. “
“ However, going to the North Pole is my dream? “ I asked in confusion.
“ Emm… so you mean you want to be an adventurer or a sailor? “ Teacher said, “Hey cheems, you need to be a little promising. Do you know how much it costs to go to the North Pole? “
I was about to interrupt, but he kept talking, “ Look at Happy Cat, her dream is to be a respected doctor. “
“ Doge, his dream is to be an excellent entrepreneur and become a milliontaire. “
“ Ah, by the way speaking of Doge, I would like to pay special attention to the praise. “
“ Just yesterday, Doge won the first prize in the school composition competiton. “
“ The topic of his competition was My Headmaster Father. Applause! “
Applause filled every corner of the classroom.
“ So, cheems, think it again. “ Teacher looked at me.
“ Bury your dreams. It won’t make money at all.”
After school, I walked home alone.
…
“ Mom, I’m back. “ Throwing my bag on the couch, I said.
“ Well hurry to do your homwork. “ Mom was cooking, said without turning around. “Learn 200 words, 5 texts and 50 mathematical Olympic problems before eating in short. Study quickly. “
“…”
“ Okay. “ I replied.
shua shua shua … ( writing… )
“ Ah, by the way, mom, “ I suddenly asked, “ the teacher assigned a composition question in class today, the topic is what your dream is. “
“ Oh, what’s your dream? Banker? Doctor? Or astronaut? “ Mom aksed.
“ My dream is go to the North Pole. “
“ Arctic? What’s good to go to the North Pole, to see polar bear show their teeth? “
“ No… I want to see the aurora… “
“ Listen, cheems, you can’t go to the North Pole, it’s too dangerous. “ The mother’s hand movement stopped, turned around and said. “ And do you know how much it costs to go to the North Pole? “
“ When you grow up, you have to buy a house and get married. “
“ Don’t make a meaningless dream. Now start eating, We’re going to study until 12 o’clock tonight, get ready. “
“ … “
“ Okay “ I replied.
Tomorrow.
“ The person who won the first prize in this composition competion is… “ The teacher paused, announced, “Cheems! “
“ Applause! “
My Dream
I have dream.
My dream is to make a lot of money, to make lots and lots of money.
In order to realize this dream, I have to study hard to get ahead.
…
“ Well done, cheems. “ Mom praised, “ Go back and study hard. Your dream will come true. “
At night, I lay alone in bed, remembering everything before.
“ I will realise my dream. “ I promised to myself.
Fifty years later
After that, I was successfully admitted to university, promoted and raised salary, became general manager and CEO. After so many years of hard work, I finally succeeded in reaching the peak of my life. If I met ever regrets of my life, that is…
To wake up too early.
Facing the boss, I hurriedly turned on the computer. Continue to work on PS.
“ Oh, I’m sorry boss, I’m too tired and fell asleep. “ I explained nervously.
“ Don’t be so nervous, there is still one last minute before the end of the lunch break. “ Boss looked at his watch and said. “I won’t deduct your salary. “
“So, boss, “ I breathed a sigh of relief, “ is there any new work to do? “
“ Yes. “ He went back to his office and came back with a stack of documents one meter high holding on his hand. “ Just give this stack of documents before leave work. “
“…”
“ Cheems? “
“ Okay “ I replied.
…
It was already 12 o’clock, and I finally finished my work for today.
“ It’s finally done. Go home. “ I said to myself.
Back to home, I just sat on the bed and wanted to sleep, suddenly I realized, “ Wait! I can’t sleep now! Elden Ring is on sale today! I’ll play while I’m good now! “
I opened my Ultra-high-end PC and started playing it.
“ What’s going on? I don’t feel like I can play it at all… “ Feeling so tired, I thought. “Do I also have electronic impotence? “
“ Forgive it. I’d better go to bed early. “
This life is repeated day after day, finally one day, after work, I fainted in the office at midnight.
The next day.
“ Cheems, why are you lying here? “ Hearing boss asking, I jerked up.
“ Sorry, boss, “ I apologized to my boss, “ I’ve been on duty for 30 days in a row, can I take a day off? “
“ Oh, Cheems, look how haggard you are now. “ The boss said with a pitying look, “ A day is a bit too much, go home and have a good rest after work this morning. “
“ Thanks boss. “ I had to answer this.
“ Cheems, you should pay attention to your health. “ The boss sighed, “ Take work as your favourite career, and you could always be full of morivation. “
“ Do you understand? “
“…”
“ Oh, I see. “ I said. “ Thanks boss. “
“ Come on, Cheems. “ The boss said to me as he left.
Afternoon.
With dark circles under my eyes, I got home, threw myself into bed, and fell into a deep sleep.
What was that? My consciousness seemed to have left my body, all the way through the walls, into the sky, overlooking the city I had lived in for more than twenty years, but I was not too surprised.
Maybe I dead.
Kept on going. A staircase made of clouds appeared before me. At the end of the stairs, it was as if a phantom like me beckoned to me.
“ Are… are you God? “
“ No, I’m not God. “ Phantom said, “ I’m you, you know. “
“ No… No.. “ I cried, “ You must be God. Please take me to heaven. “
“ Cheems… “ Phantom was silent for a moment, “ Actually there’s no heaven and savior. “
Before I could reply, the phantom suddenly rushed over and kicked me back to the ground.
“ Goodbye. “
Prologue (again)
“ After that dream, I finally realised that there was no one in the world who could save me. “ I said. “ Maybe you can’t understand why I’m so desperate, but I can’t say it again. “
Seagulls stared at me, “ Unwilling to say or still can’t say? “
“ Can’t say. “
“ Oh… I see. “ Seagulls nodded. “ So how did you get here. “
“ Because… An earthquake. “
Earthquake
“ Oh… did I sleep all day… “ Roll over and get up, and the bleak moonlight enters the window. “ and had a strange dream. “
“ No, maybe the dream was not strange. What can I do to get rid of… What is the meaning of my life in this world? “
Thundered !!
“ What happened? Earthquake? “
The earthquake lasted only a few seconds and caused little damage, but a box that shook out caught my attention.
“ This is… my childhood suitcase? “ I opened the box.
“ Santa Claus, I want to make a wish. “ I said, holding Santa Claus, “ I hope you can let me not do my homework today. “
“ What are you talking about? “ Mom came over immediately. “ Today’s homework is super double. “
“ It’s been so long… “ I sighed, “ This is… ? “
A book of composition came into my eyes.
My Dream
I have dream.
My dream is to make a lot of money, to make lots and lots of money.
In order to realize this dream, I have to study hard to get ahead.
My Children’s Day
Today is Children’s Day.
Other kids were playing, but I was studying hard.
My mother praised me for being so good, so that I could definitely be admitted to a prestigious university and become the envy of other children.
What is the meaning of studying hard
Today the teacher asked us what is the meaning of studying hard.
I think it’s just to make a lot of money.
One thing from my childhood came to mind…
“ Cheems, mom has something to go out. “ Mom said to me. “ You should study hard at home and don’t run around. “
“ Okay. “
Mom left, I took out my book Our aurora, “ HeyHey, it’s time to Touch-Fish~~ “
It was getting dark and my mother was back, “Oh, Cheems, are you reading those useless extra-curricular books again? “
“ No, mom, I’ve finished my homework. “ I explain without haste
“ Let me have a look. “ Mom took away the text…
My Children’s Day
Today is Children’s Day.
Other kids were playing, but I learned a lot about the Arctic.
The Arctic is so interesting! I’m going to the North Pole in the future.
“Cheems, you failed this composition. Holidays should be the best time to improve and consolidate your grades, not to read these useless extra-curricular books. “
“ However, reading extra-curricular books is not necessarily useless! “ I retorted, “ It can also improve my grades. “
“ But how much can it improve? Spend the same amount of time, is reading texts more important to improve performance or reading extra-curricular books more important to improve performance? “ Mom taught me with great seriousness. “ Cheems, don’t waste your time on meaningless things. You will suffer in the future when you go out to society. Do you understand? “
“ I… “
“ Understand. “
Prologue (One more time)
“ I trempled instinctly when I saw those words. “ I said. “ I escaped from my house and walked step by step in the city late at night. What is written on is not my original answer, my original answer has been erased by society and family.They left a correct standard answer, and I ran on that standard answer for more than 10 years. Until I looked back, I found that I can’t see the original road. My dream has been destroyed. “
The seagull looked at me quietly.
“ But even after more than 10 years… “ I continued, “ When I recall that dream, it still make my cold heart beat again like a long river of time. So… “
“ So? “ Seagull asked.
“ I decided to run back. “ I replied. “ I want to climb back to the mountain called dream. “
Disease
After that night, I started working like crazy, working part-time with every bit of my time. Every morning, I kiss the first rays of sun, and every evening I embrace the last rays of sunset. From supermarket salesmen, delivery boys, and even brick movers, I squeeze myself infinitely just to save enough money to complete this redemption. Even if I feel tired and suffocated countless times, I still feel something beating in the bottom of my heart.
I will keep running.
Run.
Keep running.
Oh, has you already saved $50,000 in your account… already…
Thump.
…
“ Where am I now? Why am I here? “ I woke up suddenly and looked at the unfamiliar surroundings, the white sheets and covers, and the surrounding equipment…
“ Hello, Cheems. “ A white coat came coming, “ I’m a doctor here, you fainted at the company, it was your colleagues and boss who sent you in. “
“ Oh…… I’ve been a little crazy lately. “ I nodded.
“ Don’t worry. Your boss gave you the hospital fee. “ The doctor comforted me. “ Although there is not much money either. “
“ Oh! That’s great! “
“ But, Cheems, “ The doctor suddenly became serious. “ There is bad news for you. “
…
I wandered the streets of the city alone, and the conversation I had just had was echoing in my mind.
“ There are some changes in your liver (肝脏) . Don’t worry, it’s not incurable. As long as the treatment is maintained, there will be no serious impact. It’s just that the cost of treating this disease is expensive. In addition to medical insurance (医保) , the upfront guarantee requires 50,000 treatment costs. After that, there is a continuous investment (投资) of money. If you don’t get enough treatment, then… “
“ I see. “
“ Young man, go home and raise money. You are young and there are many possibilities.”
Back home, look at the toy box.
“ Ha “
“ Ha, Ha “
“ Ha, Ha, Ha”
Early the next morning, with a shovel (铲子) and toy box, I got on the subway and headed to the countryside.
“ Oh, are you Cheems? Do you remember me? “ A man suddenly greeted me. “ I’m your primary school classmate Doge! Long time no see! “
“ Oh, long time no see. “ I replied lightly.
“ Eh, you carry a shovel is… What to do? “ Doge asked curiously.
“ Digging graves (坟墓) . “
“ Digging graves? Who to bury? “
“ Bury my dream. “
On the way to the cemetery, I asked myself, Whose grave am I digging?
In fact, I can’t tell. Is it me or that empty dream…
It doesn’t matter anymore.
Digging a one-meter-deep pit in the rain and throwing the box into it, I raised my shovel and hesitated.
“ …to go to the North Pole to see the aurora!! “
A shovel of soil.
“ Bury your dreams. “
A shovel of soil.
“ Don’t make a meaningless dream. “
A shovel of soil.
“ Bye. “
A shovel of soil.
“ Cheems. “
A word came to mind, and my hand movement stopped.
“ I’ll realize my dream. “ As a child, I sat on the bed, “ - go to the North Pole to see the aurora. “
“ Ah, but what if I give up one day in the future? “
“ By the way, I can write a composition at the end of the book. If the future I wanna give up… He will think of me today. “
I came to my senses and hurriedly opened the text…
The rain stopped, and the sun shone through the clouds into the forest.
To: Cheems of the future…
Hello, long time no see.
I am the past you.
When you remember this letter, you should already be an adult!
Have you achieved our dreams?
Or was it knocked down by life? I do not know.
But, Cheems, never stop trying.
I know it may be difficult, and no matter how hard I try, the flame of hope will never be lit.
But, Cheems, if one day, I give up and bury my dreams.
So no matter how many times it is, please muster up the courage again, pick up the shovel again, and dig out your dreams again!
Our stories should not be buried deep in the ground, but should fly above the blue sky!
No matter how many times you are knocked down, don’t forget the power of dreams!
Go to the end of the earth, but not only the end of the earth…
See the endless grasslands, see the mountains that stretch for thousands of miles, see the cascading waterfalls, and see the clear turquoise lake.
No why, just because I wanted to go.
Isn’t that the best life!
“ I’m on my way. “ I said.
End?
Get dressed at midnight and leave the hotel and walk by the sea in the Arctic Ocean, the sea is freezing cold.
Just as I wanted to continue going deeper…
“ The sea is so cold tonight! “ Looking back, a seagull looked at me, ignoring my surprise, and said, “ I don’t think you’re going to like going for a swim. “
“ Who are you and how are you here? “ I asked.
“ As you can sea, I’m a seagull. “ Seagull said. “ The view here is excellent, I plan to wait until dawn and go to the dock next door to order French fries. And you? “
“ My name is Cheems… “
“ Alright, Cheems. What are you doing here? “
“ I just… wanna go swimming. “
“ You know what? I’ve seen quite a few swimmers like you before. But their level is only a hobby. “ Seagull said slowly. “ And then I never saw them again. “
After a moment of silence, I said, “ My swimming level is still very high… “
“ Oh, you’re so hard-mouthed. “ The seagull shook his head.
“ Well, in fact, people who generally come here have some little secrets hidden in their hearts. “ Seagull got a little closer, said. “ Just have nothing to do now, If you are willing to tell your terrible story and make me happy, I would love to hear it. “
“ You are so SB (可爱的) “ I was speechless. “Well, Before that, I wanna ask you a question. “
“ Please. “
“ So, where are we going? “ Facing the Arctic Ocean with seagulls, I asked.
“ I’m going to the dock later to order some French fries. “ Seagull replied with a British accent.
“ No, you misunderstood… I mean, what is the ultimate goal of our life? “
“ What’s your opinion? “ Seagull asked.
“ I… I don’t think it’s going to the North Pole to see the aurora. “ I answered at a loss.
…..
“ Your story sounds a little strange. “ Seagull said. “ You achieved a long-held dream and broke through all obstacles. Why do you still feel so painful? “
“ At the moment of realizing my dream, I did feel great satisfaction in my heart. But almost instantaneously, I felt endless nothingness. Did Aurora bring me anything? There seems to be nothing. I still vividly remember the excitement I felt when I dreamed of seeing the aurora as a child. But as I grew up, that excitement grew weaker, I was overwhelmed by life and could no longer achieve that so-called dream. But when I buried my dreams, I was unwilling in my heart. So, I tried my best. I came here with a shell that I don’t know how long I will live. I long for the aurora to give me an eternal meaning. It allows me to be more courageous against life. But that doesn’t exist, it doesn’t mean anything. Nothing will change in my life, and my story will not fly into the blue sky.” I finished in one breath. “ In that case, what is the meaning of life? Dreams that can be moved by the heart are bored when they come true. All our goals will eventually turn into nothingness. So why should we pursue it? So, I’m not going to go any further. Since life has no meaning, let me go. Let me embrace eternal nothingness. “
“ Cheems… “ The seagull looked at me. “ Stop fooling yourself. Deep down, you’re not here to see the aurora. You just want to escape, want to escape your life now, in the past and in the future. But after escape? You still have to come back and face everything. You don’t just want to give up because life doesn’t have meaning. You are afraid, afraid of how your future painful and hopeless life will be lived. In the past, you pinned your hopes for the future on something that seemed meaningful and valuable – watching the aurora. But that’s just a mirage. When you really realize this, you surrender completely to life. Since there is no point in looking at the aurora, since life has no meaning, then why continue to live? However, Cheems, it is precisely because the world’s present, past, and future have no meaning, and it is precisely because life is meaningless that we can be freed from illusions and truly face this empty world. Leave meaning behind, it doesn’t matter at all, we will be reborn after all old ideas have been broken and reorganized.”
“ So, Cheems. “ It was dawn, and the seagull continued. “ Let’s go back to the roots of everything. Do it for the sake of doing something. And the meaning of life is… “
“ Go to the dock and order some French fries! “ The seagull said to the sea breeze, “ There is no reason and no need for any meaning. Live in every moment that is bound to come. Uncontrolled and tortured by meaning. Then fight this nihilistic, cruel, and painful life until the last second. Dance on every painful and meaningless day, and finally bravely fall in love with life. This is the most courageous and worthy thing in the world! “
“ So Cheems, your answer is? “
“ … “
“ I’m going to the dock later to order some French fries. “ I smiled.”